Inside the turquoise
sensations ripple
like sunlight under water.
We were living in a fever dream
and laid the odor of decay
around us like a trap.
In bed for days
we'd eat the little birds
that died while banging up
against our eyes.
The telephone rang and stopped…
rang and stopped…
rang and stopped.
Our friends gave up on us
we invented new friends,
The Oracle read: "No Blame."
She became thin and pail
her eyes were red rimmed
her lips were flowers
She said the city poisoned her.
Arguments began
and we'd nourish them
as best we could.
We'd dress them up like children
and send them out to play
in the alleys of our neighborhood.
We'd slip inside each other
and not come out
until our tears
filled goblets.
We cracked the turquoise
with the violence of our games.
Opened doors and windows
so the arsonists could do their work.
We ran to separate churches
and watched the fire
from different parts of town.
The Lake was frozen
Ice was everywhere.
The wind.
(1984)
Friday, May 30, 2014
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
KILLING TIME IN HONOLULU
waiting for an ocean liner
coming into port
a little later that same day
I was sitting in a bar
drinking cognac, smoking fags
had no friends, no close companions
no reason for to stay.
At noon some messed up whore
came pushing through the door
the daylight shooting in
was so bright I couldn't look
She swayed while she was asking
if I'd like a little action
I said, I've got no time
I want to finish up my book.
It's a sad old world we live in
disappointment follows pleasure
and we've never got enough of what we get
we think if we keep punching
our lives will come to something
but it's not much that life has ever come to yet.
The whores of Honolulu
break their bodies serving sailors
used up and then discarded
looking bad and feeling worse
while their pretty little daughters
chase after tourist dollars
down in Waikiki a limo
could stretch into a hearse.
Had to grab my change and step out
watch a rat crawl down a building
put my shades on duck my head
and walk down to the docks
Where I got a job, and got a berth
and life could be a whole lot worse
I could be a figher bleeding, crying
looking for another purse.
I was killing time in Honolulu
waiting for an ocean liner
coming into port
a little later that same day
I was sitting in a bar
drinking cognac, smoking fags
had no friends, no close companions
no reason for to stay.
BACK TO THE ISLAND
Friday, March 21, 2014
GINSBERG MADE ME DO IT
Here's how it happens:
words start unrolling between your ears, and maybe you could stop them if you
wanted, but you're too damn curious not to find out what they're going to be,
and how they're going to end, so you grab your notebook and pen, and start
taking dictation. Anyway, that's how it happens for me.
Bob Dylan said writing the fifty-four verses in the first
draft of Like a Rolling Stone was like vomiting.
Henry Miller said he couldn't shut the words off, so he
wrote them down. I think that was Sexus, Nexus, and Plexus - three volumes, thousands of pages, god knows how many words.
Phil Ochs said he couldn't get the words to come. He killed
himself.
I started the morning reading "The Lion," by Allen
Ginsberg. This is what it led to,
and except for crossing out a few words it's un-edited:
SPONTANEOUS MAUDLIN GINSBERG
One of these mornings you're going to wake up cold with not
enough covers to roll you back to sleep
One of these mornings you're going to wake up tired with
never enough sleep never enough sleep
One of these mornings you're going to wake up hungry and old
Mother Hubbard will be blowing on a thigh bone trumpet
One of these mornings you're going to wake up lonesome with
no one around but the stubbled reflection of the self you need glasses to see
One of these mornings you're going to wake up with a stomach
as big as a baby elephant - you've got a lot of nerve, Ganesha
One of these mornings you're going to wake up bleeding from
every hole
One of these mornings you're going to wake up with stars in
your eyes and concrete in your head
One of these mornings you're going to wake up spouting
gibberish your dog actually understands
One of these mornings you're going to wake up to a bowl of
cold cherries wet and slick, and a glass of cold water, and you're going to
enjoy the fuck out of them
One of these mornings you're going to wake up dead, and
won't that be the last available straw…
Get outta here, Allen, I'm up, already.
Saturday, January 25, 2014
WAR
American as apple pie
GI - government issue
Your soul might belong to God, but your ass belongs to the US Army.
1968
Hood, sweet young sad eyed GI
Pissed off emptied out
Stretched too thin for fuck you just wanted left alone
Rotated out of Nam into cool your heels short time worlds collide would collide macht nicht no matter where no matter what no matter
Wraith kid
watched death smudge air
watched death slide by cold war GI's
watched death pool
Scared the shit out of everybody
Could have dissolved like salt in rain no energy to him occupied so little space hardly there
Uniform Code of Military Justice finally did him in
Spec 4
busted
PFC
busted
Private
busted
court martialed
gone
Bring it on down:
airborne
infantry
combat
dark eyed
sweet young
eagle
screaming
eagle
Hood
sweet young
Hood
Turned into a ghost
Sad eyed GI.
gone.
What is it good for? Absolutely nothing!
Thursday, September 12, 2013
(Me and My) Morphine Cadillac
Song w/o Music 6
I drive a morphine Cadillac
I drive a morphine Cadillac
and I feel no pain
I drive a morphine Cadillac
and I feel no pain
Don't
care about sun
Don't
care about that cold, cold rain
I've got a tank full of gas
and I've worked through all the gears
Got a tank full of gas
and I've worked through all the gears
Fourth down to first was what it took
to
get me here
Oooo-ooooo
morphine
Whoa-ohhhh
no steering
no brakes.
I'm in a dark, dark room
and I like it this way
I'm in a dark, dark room
and I like it this way
Those
shadows on the wall
gonna'
stay all day
It's so slow in here, baby
it's so slow right now
It's so slow in here, baby
it's so slow right now
It's
alright, honey
got
no place to get to anyhow
Oooo-ooooo
morphine
Whoa-ohhhh
feel
like I'm fixin' to die.
Nighttime now
ain't never gonna' get to day
Nighttime now
ain't never gonna' get to day
my
morphine Cadillac
is
taking me away
Oooo-ooooo
morphine
Whoa-ohhhh
drive on, James
don't stop now
Oooo-ooooo
is
that an Escalade
it's
an Eldorado, honey
no
it's not, it's a Fleetwood, Mack
you
sure that's not a Lincoln Continental
no, it's
not a Lincoln Continental, it's not a Lexus,
and
it's for sure not a god-damn Prius
Whoa-ohhhh
Cadillac,
honey,
Morphine
Cadillac.
Thursday, August 29, 2013
DON'T FOLLOW ME
Song w/o Music 5
Thirty coming into town
Thirty coming into town
sixty heading out
Couldn't leave fast enough
on any highway route
A one hearse town
with a crappy whiskey bar
Near enough to everyplace
and ugly as a scar
Thirty
coming into town
Sixty
heading out
Get drunk, got drunk, gone
how'd you get next to me
Past the city limits
you still won't feel free
Thirty
coming into town
Sixty
heading out
Ninety
on the straightaway
I watched her watch the road
with that smile on her face
Didn't see the hairpin curve
'til we launched out into space
Thirty
coming into town
Sixty
heading out
Ninety
on the straightaway
Weightless
Ain't no parachute to save our skin
Won't get out the trouble we been in
Just another lousy weekend binge
And she meant less to me than a shot of gin
Thirty
coming into town
Sixty
heading out
Ninety
on the straightaway
Weightless
Blind
Don't give it too much thought
how I might of wrote this song
You think the bottom's coming up
But it's still a long way down.
Thirty
coming into town
Sixty
heading out
Ninety
on the straightaway
Weightless
Blind
and
dead.
Thursday, August 15, 2013
Older and Colder
Song w/o Music 4
Come over here, brother
Come over here, brother
pull up a stool
have a drink
that's ok, I'll get it
I just need to talk
you might lend me your ear
I know, it's Shakespeare that said it.
See that big old map hanging on the wall
shows every place I've been
and there's stars up there on those little towns -
heartbreak, misery, and sin.
Miriam was in Louisville
and Linda lived up north
there was Susie in my own home town
Crazy Mamie was the fourth.
I married every one of those girls
wasn't one that I liked best
but they all had arms
growing out of their charms
and they all put bars
up around the nest.
I left those women far behind
without a phone call or a note
and headed down to Mexico
with some money and some hope
I'd find a better place
where people prayed
on their knees - just like they meant it
and forgiveness would come
like a sweet sweet gift
a merciful God would send it.
But it weren't in the cards
it didn't happen
even though I prayed it would
so I came back north
with my hat in my hands
to try to make up
or try to make good.
I was soon to learn
that too much time
had passed and you know I let it
and if you're not on time
the people you hurt
won't let you forget it.
It's a hard and wicked world, my friend
full of roads that never end
and there ain't no truck that's long enough
to haul the hurtin' I been in.
Now I got me a room
in a skid road crash
and a job that don't really pay
that keeps me floating on whiskey fumes
and a couple of meals a day
I'd like to change my life
and do a few good things
don't know how, I'd like to try
but I'm afraid the sweet and the holy might be
too soft for hands like mine.
Thanks a lot, brother
let me get you another
there's some reason you're sitting here
but you don't have to say
and you don't have to pay
and you don't have to shed a tear.
There is one kind favor
I ask of you
think of me down the road
'cause the days are short
and the nights are long
and the older you get
the more you feel the cold
yeah, the older you get
the more you feel the cold.
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